I was jsut thinking about things and i wondered if people feel the same as me, by this i mean this:

Because of my sexual abuse several years ago, now i am really sensitive when people touch me. nobody knows about my past and sometimes i get people coming up to me and grabbing my under-arms to tickle me etc (they mean it playfully of course) but i get really panicky and i back off immedietly. i dont like being touched when im not expecting it. people only ever mean it jokingly and just want to tickle me but i get quite stressed when they do this and i actually start sweating sometimes. i even get it if someone grabs my knee or something. just something so "everyday" that everyone does to everyone freaks me out. is this due to the abuse i suffered, and do any of you feel the same.

i remember i was round a friends house earlier this year and we were getting quite close and she poked me in my side just under my arm pit to tickle me and i jumped up and told her to stop it and she got offended but i couldnt explain so i had to leave it as that and i left.

i know that people wont touch me with the same motives as when i was abused, but when someone touches me when im not expecting it i panic and seperate myself from that person.

its not only that, but when i get like this people get annoyed because it looks like im being a miserable git. i cannot explain to them why but i do ask them not to do it, and i just use the excuse that im over-ticklish which makes them do it more knowing they will get more pleasure out of it. obviously they really dont mean it viscously, its just normal to be tickled, but i sometimes cant deal with it.

this is a normal thing to feel after going through abuse, right? how many of you react the same as me?