Tnlibrarian, in my view, you're going to have to try to stop worrying about your husband's refusal to accept your illness. You know clearly what you have and you're doing everything possible to get it under control. That's really all you can afford to have on your mind: the recovery.

If hospitalization is called for, please go in and let the doctors stabilize your brain
chemistry for you. Then, take another look at your medications with your psychiatrist and come to some decisions about what is recommended for you to do.

Please consider that your husband just doesn't know enough to be helpful to you at this point. Your best chances for remission are going to be with your psychiatrist.

This illness doesn't have to get worse over the years. Mine has improved to the extent that I take only 10 mg. Prozac and 7.5 mg. Deplin (concentrated folate) per day. Big changes in my diet for months before helped me overcome the major problems with this illness. (It probably does get worse for people who do not seek help for stabilizing the chemical imbalance and do not make an effort to alter a faulty diet.)

It's the anger at your husband's unwillingness to face your reality that is part of the core problem for you. Just avoid discussing it with him until you are stable. If he insists on trying to change your thinking, ask him to see a psychiatrist. This isn't the time for him to try to persuade you to do anything except get the help you need medically.

I think sometimes that some folks live in a dream world. You don't and I'm glad you're able to get angry about his behavior.

He wants to lead you, but you need to lead yourself now and then take care of yourself so that you can manage your home and family.

I'll add you to my list of prayers tonight.

Take care.