Sweetheart, get some sleep tonight. Take your Ativan. Get in bed and rest, tonight. It seriously sounds like you need it. Those things you're telling yourself are nonsense. When you calm yourself and get back into a more clear state of mind, not fatigued from lack of proper REM, you will see that.

You are strong, capable, and beautiful.

There is so much love you have within you, not just what you've been condemned to be able to express.

Remember this, sweetheart.

Love,
Scorpio