yeah well thats about it!

welcome to the mental illness twilight zone...where "nothing" happens,

...actually "nothing" is even a fair bit!....here in emptytown...where people with no faces tie knots in old shoelaces and wander round no places....leaving behind no traces!

wooosh pfffft!! and the local ghost just wizzed by!!...or was it me??


uh huh! I think it was yep.....ghost dude

....so anyway for freaking days I have been wanting to take myself to the movies or out for a meal or just anywhere for a bit of a treat...but I just won't go. I forgot how many times I have invited myself out and I keep saying no...nope not gonna happen dude!

why am I playing so hard to get with myself??

...I even suggest why don't I just hang around home watch a movie eat some snacks even play some music that I like??

what a loser!

...I am too freakin' scared to trigger any kind of emotion...and I'm always going to enhance the entertainment with alcohol first to slow me down to the same speed as the stoopid world around me and then...suddenly that becomes my diet meanwhile the mania is inflating my reality balloon and when that decides to suddenly POP! ...it's time to go cerebral freelancing and that just scares me!

the dumb thing is that while I am manic I can think of heaps of stuff to do around emptytown it's just I'm never in any condition to do any of it.

milk...book and a biscuit...that will have to do for tonite

pfffft woooosh! ...there goes ghost dude again!