Well, yeah, I'm going to question the relationship when I get upset with the kids. Look at what he does for a living for crying out loud!

As far as having "a lot of anger" and seeing that "in some threads." This is an online message board. People tend to act a little more intensely that they would in their 3D relationships, and other people can read "anger" when that's not what it is. I said I haven't had anything like this happen in years (other than when I was on too high of a dose of Wellbutrin for a few weeks and I was highly irritable and sleep deprived). So, no, I can't say that I need anger management, nor do any of the mental health workers I've spoken to, even when I've mentioned flying off the handle in the past. My first appt. with my V.A. therapist is on Wednesday, the 30th. I have a $15 co-pay with them, and meds are $8 a month.

I get suggestions on how to housetrain the dog. "When she starts to pee, pick her up and flip her on her back so she starts peeing on herself. Dogs hate that. Get her outside and when she finishes going, tell her what a good dog she is." OK, fine, if she were peeing somewhere near a door and wasn't 50 freakin' pounds of muscle (Spaniel/Rottweiler mix. Size of a Spaniel, muscle bulk of a Rottie). You just can't move her that easily. The one time I tried to do it, I lost my balance and nearly hyperextended my knee, plus fell back against a less than super-sturdy stair railing. I'd have to carry her down the stairs, through the living room, through the kitchen, and get her hooked up on her chain so she doesn't run away once she's outside. The times I've caught her peeing in the past and started going "hey, hey, hey, hey, hey" she just looks at me and keeps going. The person making the suggestion hadn't had the opportunity to pick her up yet. Once they did, they were "OMG, this dog is solid. She's really hard to move" Yeah, no duh!

We can leave her alone in the house with his three dogs and she does fine. We were gone on Sunday for over 4 hours and she didn't make a mess or destroy anything. When we left her alone with his dogs and his daughter while we went to a movie she did fine, until she realized the daughter was in the house, then she peed on the carpet, so it's not just me she does it around. If there's a person in the house, regardless of who it is and whether I'm there or not, she has accidents. I've gone back to baby gating the kitchen door when I'm in here and blocking off the upstairs again, but it's only a Band-Aid fix.

LMo, I don't know what you can do other than tell me I'm not the piece of s hit lunatic that I feel like right now, but I guess that's what I really am.