_zh,

Understand so much of what you are saying. I'm sorry for not replying earlier. I was not in a place to read, let alone respond on posts here.

I so understand the effects of change, good and bad. This body, this mind struggles with change of any kind, big or little, good or bad.

It sounds like where you live, although out in the boondocks, might be a peaceful place with the animals to bring you comfort. I'm so glad for that. It's so hard when Ts are gone and I'm so sorry you had to deal with that on top of life's battles.

I wish you peace and safety _zh, as you continue on your journey to healing. Thank you for sharing with us. You are much appreciated.