I remember being terrified of just about everyone when I was younger, and I still kind of am. But when I was nine I had this friend named Theo. We would hang out together all the time, and we watched a lot of movies together--we'd get really involved in the universes of superheroes and science fiction people. For a while we were really into those old Sherlock Holmes movies, he'd always be Holmes and I'd always be Watson. Well, on my tenth birthday he said he had a present for me and wanted to know if I could deduce it. So I spent the day guessing random things and finally I gave up and he kissed me. But my father saw and it didn't end very well. I never saw him again but after that it never even occurred to me that I would ever be interested in girls. I've only ever had crushes since then, but I don't know. My father was so angry that I kept it hidden and I've only told two people. But I guess I've always known, if not, I've known since then.