Jan, I just saw this, I'm so sorry I missed it earlier!
Gf -- what you did was a TRIUMPH. I have many issues surrounding anger, and it took a long time in therapy to defuse them and learn that the world wouldn't end if I stand up for myself. I think that's what you just learned too!
I know it's scary, but it is healing as well. You will move forward from here as a stronger person, and hopefully one who will continue to recognize her own self-worth. You DESERVE to defend yourself!
I think you did a terrific job, and I'm really, really proud of you.
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Jan}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
Love, Candy