That must be so frustrating to be experiencing anxiety about your dream job. Do you think that perhaps part of it is that it is your "dream job" and so you might be putting a lot of pressure on yourself and have such high expectations? I only ask because I could certainly see myself struggling with this.

As far as dealing with anxiety and panic attacks, I have tried a number of things. Occasionally I will resort to taking an ativan but I prefer to manage with out them because I am so worried about becoming dependent upon them. Doing the deep breathing stuff sometimes does help. Sometimes I will write out a quick "venting" email to my T or even just journal to myself in order to get the stuff in my head "out". The other thing that sometimes helps is sort of an EMDR technique I guess. My T does EMDR and he suggested that when I am very anxious that I can sort of do a type of it on myself. I try to visualize my safe place and alternately tap either my hands on my knees, my feet on the floor or a new method is to cross my arms, almost like I am giving myself a hug and tap on each side of my neck. It does actually help, when I remember to do it.