When I go to bed, I get horrible foot & leg cramps...not so much lately as I did during the summer. Can't get to sleep then when I finally do, end up with nightmares.....& all too often, I wake up with an impending feeling that something bad is going to happen.....could be my caregiving mode for my elderly eskie dog.....but something bad always happens when I get that.

Bed is a nice place because Leo & Tawny always end up right text to me.....& it's a comfortable bed....but I hate the way I wake up & yes, I need a hot shower to get my body moving no matter what time I get up from the bed.

I more times than not....end up cat napping at my computer, then go to bed around 4-5am....then get up whenever the body feel like it so I can have some level of energy.......but without my hot shower before getting my day going...no matter what time......& a hot shower before going to bed especially if I have worked at doing anything during the day......never realized how sore my back would end up after fracturing it last year.

Worst thing is that because of how bad I end up feeling with going to bed & getting up, there are times when I go days without really going to bed....& I end up exhausted & then just collapse then I can sleep for 12+ hours.

The other night I was afraid I wouldn't get up to get my property tax payment in early that morning after missing their closing time by 10 minutes the night before....the deadline for the discount payment....so I just stayed up all night....when I got home after making the payment which they graciously took at the discount amount....I crashed in bed & slept until 4pm.

I really need to get things done around here & being exhausted from not sleeping & not eating well......doesn't get the things done that I need.....really frustrating & really get frustrated at not being able to control my sleeping better....even with sleep aids.....they work great if I can just get myself to go to bed in the first place.....but still get the nightmares & waking up feeling like something bad is going to happen....sleeping good doesn't change that.....which was what I was hoping it would do