Hi, I'm 40. Feeling worthless, hate myself. Actively destroying a good relationship because I'm a paranoid idiot. Don't know how to stop being paranoid. Being paranoid and jealous are two seperate feelings and hard to explain. Tired of having to explain my stupid self. My brain tells me to drive off cliffs. Yeah. I'm loads of fun.....lol hate being told to stop feeling sorry for myself. If I could I would, duh. Nice to meet others possibly in same boat. :-(