Thank you. I don't have a therapist, I don't think my father would approve of that. It'd be nice to be able to talk things out with someone but I don't see that happening in the near future... And thank you so much, mazing. That's exactly what it seems, impossible. All of it. I don't know who I could tell or talk to--the teachers would just tell my father and my friends aren't that close of friends. I mean there's this one friend who wants to know more and more about me but it's really intimidating and too close for comfort and I think telling her would mean her telling a teacher which would, of course, go back to my father. I think my best bet is what I said in the other post (sorry that there are two of these) about a shelter. I found a few in my area, so, if I need to I could go there.