my friends deserted me a long time ago for issues that are no fault of my own. i am tired of making friends online they have done nothing but let me down, stalk me, curse me out, etc like i need that! nothing wrong with chatting on forums but why be penpals if we will never meet?

i feel as though ppl have an issue with me when i walk in a room/bldg that is how i feel. they have no idea what is going on with me inside, i feel as though the women's eyes keep following me around. i am clean and have good hygiene why am i getting all of these eyes?