I'm turning 25 soon, and I'm so afraid of and even kinda expecting to be alone forever. Guys never show even the slightest interest in me. I can't even get a horrible date, much less find a good guy for a committed relationship. I'm at the age where pretty much everyone is getting engaged, married, and having babies. Even friends and family members who are several years younger seem closer to marriage than me. People say I should be happy and not worry about finding someone, but honestly I'd rather die than get much older alone. I despise being single, and being single would be the ultimate life failure for me. I don't care about any specific career/hobby/whatever more than finding someone to love who loves me. I want a family more than anything, and I don't see that ever happening for me. I just want to die sometimes.