A little over a month ago, my ex-husband went to jail again for possession with intent. About a week later his mother went in the hospital for a fall. Since she had cancer they did some tests. They found that the cancer had spread to the point there was nothing they could do. This woman was a rock, the strongest woman I have ever seen in my life. She had 2 daughters with Huntington's disease and her oldest grandson came down with it too. She took care of all 3 of them without much help from anyone. Within a 3 year period, she buried all 3 of them. The only child she had living then was my ex-husband. He has been on meth for the past 15 years. That is the reason we divorced. He hasn't worked in well over 9 years. His mother has kept him up. Though all she had every month was SSI. He has been in and out jail so many times for drugs and child supposrt and his mom would take him money every week, even if it was her last $40. She fought this cancer for 5 years for 2 reasons. My ex-husband and my son. When the doctors said that there was nothing more they could do and it was just a matter of time his cousin came to me and asked me if I thought he would stay clean if he was out of jail. He was going to get him out. I told him that he might for a week or so, but then he would go right back to it. It has been just over a month now. My ex- mother-in-law has passed away this past week. The cousin that has been staying with her told my son he could not have her dog although the dog was promised to him. There is supposed to be a handwritten will with witness signatures, but the cousin who was staying with her had it. My mother-in-law wanted to be cremated so there would be money left for my son and his dad. The hand written will talks about that, the dog, and her car. She told my son she was going to give him the car because she was afraid I would have a hard time getting him one. Now the cousin is driving the car and has her dog. She tried to use the insurance check to pay for the cremation and the memorial service, but since it is in my sons and his fathers name she couldn't. She went to the jail to get a power of attorny from my ex husband and still could not cash the check because my sons name is on it. The cousin who was going to bond him out of jail called yet another cousin and asked what she thought about getting him out. She thinks he was set up and that he will do okay now. They bond him out. He calls my son 3 times in 2 days, but will not talk to me. Now he has changed his number. He hasn't even let my son know how to get in touch with him. I am so mad at him and his cousin that has taken the dog and the car that I could probably walk up and knock them flat.

We are to be at the memorial service today at 1:00. I know that if he looks like he is wired up on meth I am going to say something and I am afraid I am going to go to jail. I am trying to control this anger for my sons sake, but it is also for his sake that I am so mad.