Hi Frozen,
How were you reckless? Well, let them not like you for who you really are but then they may like you for who you are also. I know that's easier said then done, though.
I have the same problem. I get angry instead of getting sad and that puts people off but it makes me feel safe because then I'm not vulnerable. I'm only making things worst. Instead of just saying "I'm really sad" or god forbid, I cry in front of anyone. I think it comes from being abused and my father telling me not to cry or he'll give me something to cry about while he was whipping me with a wet belt.