Thx Lee!

Yeah I know deep down they won't demote me as I fear. But thats not my main concern though. I do feel that with alot of friends both male and female however I feel jealous specifically if two of them were to get together.
It is like I am envious of the guy who got the girl in a sense and its like I wish it was me who got with her sometimes even though I don't find them attractive that way, yes they are good looking but I dont see them that way.
But then I say to myself if I did not think them two were getting together I wouldn't want to get with the female friend. Seems I only want to when I know or feel they may do with others if that makes sense.