While on 2.5 mg of abilify and 60 of strattera (which hasn't helped much) randomly today I decided I have to better myself and get smarter. I can't let things pass me by anymore, including school, and I shouldn't procrastinate as much. But now I feel like knowledge is power and I'm afraid of being stupid (mainly people thinking I'm stupid). I also have few friends (mainly because of the position I have been in the past few years, small private school, depression, etc.) but that's because I am mainly quiet, which is because I am afraid of saying something stupid, because I don't have a lot of knowledge (IMO). I feel like I'm going insane, in a way. I have nothing to lose at the moment, so that's why I'm feeling like this.

Anyone ever feel this way?