I know exactly what you're saying. I've tried to look at it differently these days though. When I feel like I'm pretending, I try to check in with the little kid in me who feels ignored. I assure that part of me that I will deal with what's going on but at the moment I need to do...X,Y,Z. That really helps sometimes. Sometimes I feel like I'm walking around with this big secret and I want to scream. Today has been like that...
Good luck! Annie