Thanks all, but I still really have no idea what to do - or how to even talk about this.

It's coming with it a lot of baggage about not being the caregiver, because things would kind of fall apart if I didn't do it as a child.

I know I'm not a child any longer, but the notion that I have to carry people still weighs heavily.

It was something that was never addressed in all my years with my previous therapy - because it never had to be.

I'm trying to think of it as a positive step. As with most positive steps it's wildly confusing and hurtful.

I still can't get over the fact that my therapist put me in this position. It makes me angry that he did, and I'm angry at myself for so readily stepping up into that role.

It's just hard.