I am wondering if what i am feeling is normal. see, occasionally i get homosexual thoughts. i am not gay, nor do i feel it, but sometimes i get these thoughts. is that because of the abuse i suffered in my past. i think it is.

i am attracted to women, and i dream of growing up and getting married to a woman, and us 2 having kids, but i never look to the future and see me being gay. i dont even feel attracted to men, i just get the occasional thought.

i truly think i know who i am very well, i am so sure of who i am because i have worked on myself for so long. i am in no doubt as to my sexuality, otherwise i wouldnt feel safe posting this. but just wondered if anyone sometimes feels the same, and whether what i feel is because of the abuse or just simple curiosuity because of my age.

does anyone feel the same?

speak soon