tigergirl you may have shown yourself, but in a SAFE PLACE and you are NOT unclean or revolting.
Give yourself some time to calm down; what you are feeling is, from what I can tell from PC in general, and if I can use the term, perfectly normal. painful though, yes.
but look here. you went in planning to talk about something but ended up talking about something that needed to come out - that's very brave, and very good work. Now that it's out, it will lose power. hang in there!