After the introduction here a few days ago I withdrew from this place because I felt like my questions would never get answered, no one would care enough, or just leave this high and dry. Unfortunately I have a brief moment of coming to my senses so before I can go back to the raging train wreck that I am right now, I will do what I can to at least get some advice. I suppose that my borderline is unique and maybe not, I guess I can clarify that later because I really am trying to sidetrack myself. I used to fight people on the streets, get into knife fights, risk my life not because I was too chicken S*** to take my own life that just comes natural... I fight to save my life every day because for whatever reason people say I am worth something on this planet. I have since stopped fighting three years ago, under orders of my therapist and my girlfriend at the time. I replaced that with working out. OK, sounds good right? Well skip forward to now, a back injury later, and a horrible rocky relationship (I am leaving a lot out on purpose), and you get this current problem. I have started to lift weights again to manage the anger as best I can. Still doesn't stop the outbursts or the behaviors that come with it, but at least I can say I'm still fighting. I can partially manage the anger, but I cannot for the life of me manage the binge eating. I have kept alcohol out of the fridge... but I just want to eat and eat and eat. It goes beyond high metabolic rate, I hate feeling so fragmented, empty, alone... I need to lose the weight I gained off of injured binge eating, but it is killing me. I cannot balance this and I need advice. Can anyone out there give me a hand? I would also like to say I have no problem giving past details about me, but I have not quite established the right amount of trust to do so, so I try to keep the details brief. Sorry if that pisses any of you off, I do not care if it does.