FWIW: I've flamed myself the same way, under the misguided notion it would "improve" me or "keep me in line." I can't claim abuse, but many's the time I've wished my parents weren't such upright perfectionists.

Besides the fact that I'm trying to learn radical self-compassion, I can say pragmatically that my self-abuse has NOT had the desired effect -- I'm no better morally, physically, financially or in any other way after such a bogus form of self-"improvement."

Please accept a bevy of cyberhugs ...

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