I know that I have a problem with depression, and have for decades. Part of me says I should seek help, but a couple things stop me. First is the fear of being put on antidepressants. I don't respond well to those medications. I've been given small doses of many of the new ones for their side effect of helping some people's migraines. Even small doses floor me, dropping my blood pressure so low that I'm too weak to get to my feet.

The second is a mixture of a lack of trust, (all my experiences with shrinks were bad), and the fear of opening doors that should stay closed. I'm afraid if one of those doors is opened, i'll either shut down or do something drastic.

Every now and then, I think of trying to find a therapist to help, but fear holds me back.

Sam2