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Rapunzel said:
This question is so hard to deal with. Well, not really a question, is it. This issue, anyway. It makes me fall asleep or spend hours staring at the computer screen or avoiding everything by playing stupid computer games. I can't get my homework done either, and I have lots of stuff due tomorrow. The same theme keeps coming up though. I keep discovering that my perception is off, and also that my judgement of my perception is unreliable too. I want to be real so bad, but I am so afraid of what real is and that maybe it's not something I will like. Authenticity is a good word.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> classic avoidance and dissociative behaviours associated with such major foundational issues in therapy and life.

questioning what is authentic for you....learning who you can trust to bounce ideas off of to help you figure out what info to take in and what info to ignore and release.........these are the things that are going to help you discern what is reality and how closely that reality aligns with the general population........not to say you have to agree with all things but to become more aware of when your reality is at total odds with those you trust around you.

of course change is scary and the idea of not liking what we find after peeling away these layers can be a huge deterent to making those changes. there comes a point when you can only live life so constricted and confused for but so long.

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How far do you drive for therapy? I usually do online work, but when I go it's a long way too.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> let's just say it is longer than a quick jaunt and remote enough to be dangerous w/o adequate gas. online hasn't been part of this therapeutic relationship, or any other for that matter in our case. glad it is component that is working for you.

well...was going to quote more of the thread from others and put in two cents but spaciness is winning out so gotta go take care of that.

takes courage to admit one isn't happy or content and to do something about it. something is working right if you're facing your stuff more squarely now.