I can't handle being lonely, it is hurting me more than ever. I have agoraphobia and I am at home all day, I try to sleep the day away as it is too painful for me to be awake. See I just got out of a very abusive online relationship (I was with him for almost a year), I stayed with him cause I was afraid of this....loneliness. He dumped me for this girl that he loved for many years, I tried so hard to make things work out between him and I but it didn't. I feel that there is no hope for me with getting a guy, my will to live is so hard at this point. I am getting too old to have a family of my own, I just can't seem to cope with this. I am estranged from my own family. I am hurting so badly and I can't cope, I just can't!