I decided about two months ago that Paxil was causing more harm than good. Believe me when I say it worked...it does work. Maybe too well.
but i couldnt do alot of things i used to be able to do and things that came naturally like.....
crying---i couldnt cry for anything. I couldnt write poetry anymore---i couldnt write songs...my stories werent coming anymore---i was forgetting everything...i wasnt intersted in sex with my partner anymore...i didnt even want to be touched ...not even hugged. If i missed a dose...you can tell immediently...whoosh whoosh
So...without telling my doctor (i dont reccomend this method) I stopped taking it. Days 1-7 were the hardest...i stayed in bed as much as i could...i was dizzy---tripping---running into things.
I had the horrible brain zaps you have prolly heard about...they were horrible in the first week...now i only have them occasionally...maybe 4-5 times a week...but not nearly as strong as they were at first.
I sweated my butt off for the first week...had to change my bedsheets every morning...regardless of the fact that the air conditioner was running.
I felt sick to my stomach
And i could feel my emotions slowly settling back down as my brain took over where the drugs had left off.
Its almost like Paxil puts you on auto pilot....telling your brain to take a nap while the Paxil does all the hard work.
all and all..... I am THRILLED to be free of it....i cant imagine what it would be like to get off of it after three or more years.
It just takes a little stick to itness to get over the first week hump...i chose to do it cold turkey because as silly as this may sound...I WAS MAD AT PAXIL.
I felt like it was robbing me...of me.
SSRI's are bad drugs in my opinion. I have been on most of them at one time or another in the past 14 years.
Yes...they do work. But I think there are other methods to be explored to deal with depression...other drugs...therapy.---hell even prayer...
it may be a workable solution to some people...but I dont like feeling addicted...and its a fact...you will get addicted to this drug.