It's true our society is broken. We all need to be sitting around in little tribes taking care of each other. Not everyone in seperate houses ignoring their neighbors. We all need to be growing food and working outside. Not sitting at desks all day. If the world as we know it collapsed everything we have would be worthless. Money is not food. It doesn't grow food and it doesn't keep you warm (I guess you could burn it but how long will that last?) Gold is a worthless metal that is given value because it is pretty.

So, yeah, the world is messed up.

But I think what you're missing is it isn't always about mood. "Happy" and "sad" and all of that really are not the issue for me. My issue is that I am losing my cognitive functioning. I forget how to talk, how to write, how to read. I forget where I am and how to get places I have known my whole life. I see things that are not there, hear things that are not there. They are scary to me, not things I want in my life. I fall into belief patterns that are terrifying and damaging to my life and wellbeing. These are the problems bipolar has presented me. If it was all about "happy and sad and angry" that is something I can handle. But, I need help otherwise. Something is wrong, and it's something that is eating my brain alive. I try very hard to fix it by myself, but obviously it is not going well. My work, my family, my house, everything around me is suffering as I suffer. So the responsible thing is to seek help.

So, that is my road and my journey. You are free to be yourself and be on your own road and journey. Just like my journey is not wrong, yours is not either. I hope you never have to see your intelligant mind start to fall apart like mine is. It is painful to float in and out of who I was and to witness it, but then also lose my grip on reality and not even notice, then come back to it and see what has happened. That is terrifying. I don't wish it on anyone.