OMG....I just totally realized some things that happened a couple days ago that kinda didn't hit me until now....

1. My old neighbor who tried to run me over was across the street with her family, finally getting their stuff out of that house. She came over to my house with her 2 grandkids and had them knock on my door. I completely froze. I felt tortured by it - knowing how much I love those girls and how I couldn't allow myself to be in a face to face situation with those girls there and my daughter home. I hate that she has that affect on me.

2. I shared some of my biggest traumas with a friend and her adult daughter....Not sure how it came up...but it did...and the awkward silence afterwards made me sick to my stomach. My friend then asked me, "Was any of it consensual?". Why would someone ask that? I don't even know what to think. We kinda moved onto different topics after that. I don't know. I just feel sick about it.