I slipped again.

this does not make sense.

I don't think addictions do.

I got back on the wagon this morning.

My uncle and his gf came down, sometimes triggers happen when you don't realize it.

Many of us do our drug of choice when we are h appy, sad, bored, aroused, angry, or just empty.

The thought went thru my mind, "Why not do it? It's just a fantasy."

Even the idea of the man's gf did not stop me this time.

But I felt BAD this morning.

Felt trapped all night.

I have never done without it before, though.

I have to keep trying.

Never give up.

As long as I keep trying.

Carol