I thought about calling doc's last night and lost my nerve again.

Too many many times I have been disappointed and rejected by them.

I know I need to follow the ER's instructions, but I can't get the pic out of my head of some doc shaking his head at me and saying, "Why did you come here? I can't help you...you're hopeless."

The ER doc did tell me I am not having a heart attack, so I will in the meantime try to manage my anxiety myself. Not drink so much caffeine and try to relax at night.

I am so scared of docs putting me down. My self-esteem is fragile enough right now.

Carol