school is killing me bc im new and i know like no body so its hard to do stuff and its hard to concentrate when im doing school work bc all i think about is life all home... All the screaming and fighting... Thats all me and my mom do now... its hard to get through all this without her... Im having lots of issues and my mom set me up and appt with a T but i wont talk to him bc if i tell him how i truely feel ill get hospitalized... so i have no body to turn to.. and it hurts to know that i cant even go to my own family bc when i try to talk to them they just say i told you so and you shouldnt have done that and blah blah blah i have no support from them whatsoever.... i made a mistake and messed with brothers but ive learned from that... i dont talk to either of them anymore... i thought i was pregnant with one of their kids but im not i started my period... and im kinda happy kinda not bc i really want a kid bc it would be like so great.. i know it would be hard but it would still be great... ive almost cut but i stopped myself but i dont know how much longer i can put it off....