I was experimenting with the meds for a full year before my doc found the right combo for me. Don't give up hope. It might help to have your husband educated about bipolar so he can be more understanding as you go through these awful moods. Try NAMI (National Alliance of the Mentally Ill) & DBSA (Depression & Bipolar Support Alliance). They both have excellent resources to learn about the disorder & have support groups as well. There is hope for you! I suffered for 30 years before I got the proper diagnosis & meds.