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Originally Posted by granite1
today some thoughts from the past kept creeping into my head and yes it was very triggering and bothersome and it got me to wondering ,is this the kind of stuff you share with your T. i read a lot about people sharing memories and stuff with T but are vague in content.
i was thinking about the times that the mother hurt me so bad i needed to go to hospital and it got me so angry and upset.i had gone to hospital for stitches a few times and once because my head was split open and i had to stay there because of a concussion. things like that.it wasnt like she would just slap me accross the face although she did plenty of that.it got me angry about how it didnt bother any of these people at hospital no one questioned the mother.you see she worked in the lab there and it was a small hospital.in fact her best friend and the mother of the guy who CSA me was the head of radiology there.the mother was friends with all of them.so i guess they never questioned and i kept my mouth shut. i get angry at that a lot. i had had pic taken of all my bruises at times and were brought to a lawyer but because my farther didnt want the mother to go to jail even the lawyer did nothing. i get mad at these things sometimes and don't understand why it was like that.
my question is is this the stuff you all bring to your T and is so so hard to deal with and look at? is this what i should be putting into words for her? i know it is stupid but sometimes i have no clue what i should be saying or letting her know.or what she would want her to know .i know stupid but if i need to talk don't i need to know what to say first  |
Granite, I am soooo sorry this happened to you.
You must have a lot of anger still trapped inside and I can understand why. These painful memories are tormenting you and you wonder why no one helped you or questioned your parents.
This is so alarming, that you were brought to the hospital and no one suspected foul play or maybe they did but were too afraid to question as your mmother was obviously well respected there. Often times its easier to turn a blind eye rather then confront somebody. Its heartbreaking that you had to suffer though and I only hope that things got better for you?
To answer your question- yes, this is the sort of thing you bring up in therapy. Because our past moulds our future. I don't know why you are in therapy now but I am guessing it has something to do with your abusive past?
T will know how to bring out all the anger and release those nasty feelings- best of luck.