Sandy(the storm) destroyed my car and I was devastated for a day or two until I realized I had nothing of value in there and it was getting too cold to live in my car anyway... the destruction overwhelmed me and I am still in shock but I guess it was for the better because it has pushed me to look for a new T. I haven't been out of therapy for that long but it feels like it's been forever.

I took the advice of members on here and decided to look for a female T. I emailed one last night and I assume it will take a few days to get a response because the storm knocked out a lot of power(maybe I'll call later on in the week). I am so afraid of starting over in therapy. I am still keeping contact with my old T and I feel guilty 'moving on' and in a sense abandoning him as my therapist(even though he's staying my friend). He has encouraged me to start with a new T and I thought it would be easier than this.

I feel guilty and afraid. I don't know if I can do it but I know I have to.

Any advice?