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Originally Posted by Longleaf
Hi, Cat. Like you and Carol, I saw myself in a lot of the descriptions of BPD behavior, and hated seeing myself there. Where I didn't see myself was in the descriptions of cold, calculated scheming, and that cruel word, "manipulative." This forum belies that stereotype; here are some of the kindest, most giving people I've ever encountered. Glad you're here, too.
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Thank you, Carol. I see myself as more panic-stricken than manipulative. I think my fears come from believing that it is way too easy and way too common for people to just simply dismiss others when they don't measure up to their expectations. I see myself as kind of a "plain jane" so I don't feel that I really have anything worthwhile to offer. I freak out when I sense I am about to be dumped once again. But it is only because I care too much. I have a warm heart. I guess life would be easier and I would be considered normal if I was cold and just didn't care like a lot of people I know.