Thank you Sky and EV..I was very worried about discussing this..it is a very hard issue to talk about when I have tried so hard to runaway from it, even with all the knowledge and tools I am gaining in therapy..getting a handle on flashbacks and triggers and how they set this off is very confusing and scarey.

I am very worried about the therapeutic relationship EV, and understand the fear of rejection and abandonment, so thank you for sharing and offering support, appreciate how hard it is for Survivors of Trauma and/or Abuse to discuss those core issues..I know it sounds silly, even with all the reasurance from my T...I still fear I could unintentionally do harm if triggered to release this..so I fight it..bury it..hide it..run from it..but in doing so..remain stuck with it..why is it these things get so huge when you deal with it by yourself..it seems so much bigger than I am..if that makes any sense...mmm..I just learned something right there...thanx...