I reply to my own threads sometimes. I feel so foolish when I post and get "0" after it.

I grieve the loss of never learning self-love by so much invalidationg and feeling so invisible and unlovable.

I grieve this loss and then learn self-love.

It is so hard to feel invisible.

To feel unreal.

To feel like all I am is just a waste of space, a waste of time, just a complaining blob of nothing.

I try even harder at times like this, to learn self-validation.

Because who else is going to?

Validation is a gift from others and I must keep treating it that way.

I was at a 12 step meeting earlier and got validated.

One blessing.

Carol