Oh lost me...I am sorry you are feeling so down...there must be some good reasons to be here...maybe smelling flowers? drinking good cup of coffee? baking a cake? doing the crossword puzzle in the Sunday paper? Crunching the leaves beneath your feet on a auntumn day? building a snowman? singing in the shower? just pick one good thing to do every day for yourself...see what happens? I am caring about you...and so are so many here at PC...Hope tomorrow is better for you!!!