Arismars...I feel bad that you feel so bad today...Hope you will find a ray of sunshine tomorrow!! Even if you think no one loves you..it is not true...Your family does...maybe they don't show it in the right way...Maybe they aren't aware how much you hurt inside...Are you going to a doctor? or taking anything for your depression? It could help you to realize things can get better...and as for girlfriend...she will come when you least expect it...lol...that is just the way it happens....so hang in there!!!