hi hatter08, you know, you sounded very similar with my life story. i feel really disgust at myself, probably a bestfriend is enough, zero close family, i find my self so hard to get a job, i dont belong in any social groups i cant even survive in some groups of people, lack of talent, full of hate i am such a hater holding too many grudge for so many years, a miserable loner.

i know how you feel, how you just want to dissapear, i've been thinking about that almost everyday in my life. maybe there's a lot of people like us out there but we're enjoying being out of radar. im glad i read your post, knowing there's someone else fighting the same battle in this life.

talk to you later hatter08