i know by talking to you through pm's how happy you were very recently, and trust me, that isnt far away. the trouble with depression is that it waits until you start feeling good about yourself and then it grabs your feet, and drags you down so quickly you dont know whats happening. you can beat this, i know you can.

these negative thoughts began because you started doubting the way you look etc, and so you are now in a routine and keep telling yourself these negative thoughts. habits are a hard thing to break at the best of times, especially when its a mental one. you are a fantastic person flinty, and you have absolutely no reason to feel this way about yourself.

you need support from those around you right now flinty so id suggest talking to a close relative or friend about this, i wouldnt reccomend speaking to you bf about this because as you told me, he isnt very supportive. or failing that, you can talk to me anytime if you should need me. many of us here at PC are here for you ok.

take care