hurt and pain closed up inside
find a place to run and hide.

not allowed to talk or say
what has made my pain today.

hold it in keep to myself
swallow hard don't share or else.

piled on are heaps of mad
hurt and anger scared and sad.

higher higher the pile grows
turning churning the stench i know.

need to find quick release
of this pressure find some peace.

old ways quickly come to mind
temptation strong and not too kind

i struggle now and contemplate
the choice i have but perhaps too late.