Hello all,

I am new on here, but I just thought I would take a minute to reach out. I am a 35 year old female housewife. I have been dealing with depression all my life but it is so bad now I just don't know what to do anymore.

I had been taking Paxil for a while for my depression (several years, 20mg) and my husband and I wanted to try to have a baby recently. My doctor took me off it in two weeks, causing problems so bad I cannot even tell you. Physical and emotional. Suicidal feelings. The worst ever. I found a new doctor who put me back on it two weeks ago so that I could taper it correctly as I had gotten so suicidal I could not be off it anymore. My new doc tells me this was because the Paxil was taken off to quick--rebound effect not necessarily that I am suicidal without it. So, now the suicidal thoughts have stopped. But I am in the bleakest depression of my life. Daily life seems hard. I don't work I volunteer and it is nearly impossible to get out of bed. I am seeing a therapist and working CBT techniques but I don't know what is happening. I have never been this bad in my life.

It is exhausting living life like this especially when I have so much to be grateful for. I don't have to work, great husband, home, family, etc.

I feel no one understands this anymore. It has been going on for so long now, I just feel it will never break.

Anyone else been through this? Any timeline on how long it took when medication was re instated? Any help?

Thanks in advance.

Sincerely,
Ali