I have not been raped in this life, but I can't stand watching a rape in the movies and even though I'm pretty tough and not queasy about anything, that action I will not tolerate. Even the suggestion of it p****s me off because it is the same mindset as hurting children and defenseless animals. I read a book and the first chapter there was a rape and I tossed it out. I can only imagine your pain and I am so glad that you are seeking help and have chose to move forward. You are extremely brave and I wish I could wrap my arms around you.