Hey,
I would honestly see a psychiatrist, he'll help you retrain your mind and use different methods of coping. I don't cut anymore because I feel I deserve something better than to hurt my body. Cutting yourself to represent your pain is a little odd to me. I personally hate my scars because I believe my pain should be private and something that I go through not others. I'm not represented by my pain i'm represented by the person that I am. Plus most people don't view scars as you've been through a lot. It more looks like your desperate for attention. You should respect your body, that should be your main reason for stopping. I'm not going to lie I have been known to cut about once a year now under weak times. But I do it to feel... or relax, or to hurt myself. Not to represent my pain, maybe you should try thinking of positive things to represent yourself with. I also find my scars just remind me of my pain when it's something I should be moving on from. Either way goodluck!