Thanks for the support everyone, its just hard not to feel angry and bitter all the time now.

@Leed - I am working on getting access to therapy still - its just that I don't have a medical doctor and couldn't afford a therapist anyway, since I've still got student loan payments but I'm trying to work it all out.

@unfearless - I'm sorry that you're going through something similar. It always helps to know there are others out there who know exactly what it feels like and I wish you all the best.

And of course thanks to everyone else for posting. I am feeling a little bit better today. I know it won't last long but its thanks to the little breaks I get from being miserable that I'm even alive right now so I'm just grateful to have one more good day and everyone here helped make it a little better.

I'll keep everyone posted in case things change.