Hammy if you honestly do not have it in you to say no thanks, then I agree, your eating is disordered. And by that I simply mean 'abnormal' or problematic. If you decide that lithium is better than credit card limits,then that is you choice, and you have every right to choose your choice. However,I can see why Venus, or anyone else may be baffled as to how you came to that decision, as meds are certainly not healthier than a bank agreement, no matter how side-effect free you believe yourself to be.