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I've been in a bad place recently it seems and I just can't manage to find my way out of this rut. I've been down all week, not feeling good enough, not feeling like I matter. I'm letting my life fall apart around me and I don't even care anymore because really, what's the point? I'm not going anywhere. I'm never going to get out of this crappy little town and I'm never going to make it anywhere in the world. No one cares. No one even looks at me twice. I'm just a shadow. I'm just a whisper. I'm barely there and completely unnoticed. My parents don't care, because they just think I'm being lazy. They think that I'm just not working like I should be. And maybe that's a part of it, but they don't ask WHY I'm not working. WHY I'm seeming to be lazy. They don't ask WHY I keep wearing long sleeves and haven't rolled my sleeves up in a long time. They just ignore it, because they just don't care. They don't want to believe that I can be depressed. They don't want to believe it and I'm sick and tired of trying to hide how I really feel so they don't feel bad about everything. I don't know what to do anymore. I just want to give up, more and more everyday, I want to give up. But I don't know...
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"The Proper Office of a Friend is to side with you when you are in the Wrong; nearly anybody will side with you when you are in the Right." -Mark Twain
Kayla, Kaleb, Victor, Mono, Derek, Dylan, Dean, Vergil, Dante, Nero, Sammy, Krystian, Sebastian, Ruben, Roan, L, Seth/Scotty, Stok, Silver, the Silence, and other unknowns
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